So I rang God this morning !.......... He answered !!!!

So my last blog was full of bitching and moaning about ME ! Gotta keep reminding myself that I am not the only person with gripes ! Normal wake up call from Eugene, who I ' hate ' at that time of the morning ! As the saying goes...... You can choose one of two paths for the day - good or bad. I know that I am teetering on the more sombre one. My body hating every absolutely nessesary exersize needed to maintain any semblance of spasticity within the muscle make up ! ' Why ME ? ' creeps into my head like some evil worm trying to throw me off kilter !! " Fu&:)@k this I manage to argue between the grey matter and reasonable doubt !!!

Have got to make a call to God ! More often than not, His line is busy ! Much like the SA load shedding :) , just when you need the damn current, it is NOT available ! Well this morning HE picked up ! Shock, horror, and total disbelief !! Yeah, I shit you not ! I immediately start an argument with him, why this ?, why that ?, why me ?.........................Suddenly the excersisers become less strenuous,  I find my limbs embracing them, even helping with the movements ! My mind tilts a little, and thoughts of some of the patients from Alcatraz that I left behind, enter my minds eye, the beautiful lights that I am able to see as I pass through Canary Wharf en-rout to and from work, the ability to be able to work again, the use of what I have enabling me to re-build a life etc etc etc they JUST did not stop coming....way too many to list !! SO, there was no option, BUT to choose the positive attitude.

Feast or famine, He had intervened, my mindset now on the good road ! Andreas, completely agog whilst escorting me to work - I greeted the 100 year old graves passing through the church yard with ' morning fellow's, sleep tight ' Did not swear or curse at the other pavement users so busy texting that they would be run down by the 4 x 4, no profanity, and even greeted the tramp outside the station. Sadly, did not see the usual one, a middle aged woman with tyre length hair, no legs and rotten teeth - usually perched proceriously on the edge of her chair pretending that she was gonna fall out !! I am not joking ! She looks like a hamster with no cross bar for the wheels ! I Sussed her out on day one, when she tried to befriend me ! NO GO, as the saying goes ' you can choose your friends, but........... ' That low roller was not gonna be a part of this high rollers circle ! But had she been there, perhaps I would have thrown a few coins into her lice infected beret that she hovers over. ( I do however have to admire her balance skills - sooo envious )

More mind over matter, I maniplate my way behind my desk - all colleagues walking on ' egg shells ' Think they might have read my last blog ! Jo, comes out of his office, and simply asks ' are you over yourself yet ? ' Yes, I answer ! OK, get on with Dragon then ! Gotta love his diplomacy !!

So the next phase of this ' Dragon ' voice activated program, level that we have, tells me my accent is not recognized - WORLDWIDE !!!, and I need to re-read to it, on a wholesale degree in order for it to re-boot the voice activation box ! I have options.......... Whinny the Poo, Alice in Wonderland, and some other freaked out fables. I select Alice !!, ......... WRONG move !, coz every time I say Alice, in unison the others say ' Who the F&£@ck is Alice ' - Dragon picks this up, and after poor ol Alice falls down the rabbit hole, the pc types ' and who the f&£@ck is Alice '

Again, I refer back to my conversation with Him this morning ! How lucky I am to have these amazing people in my life - Jo, who says it like it is ! Thank you. Justin, who NEVER makes enough coffee, Eileen, who is lacking in bleach for the hair !!:), Tobes who mothers me around getting me in and out from my desk for a Marlbourgh Gold !! Yes, Don't judge ! Thank you guys ! Umit, Marcio, and Guy - Same sentiment given. As for Sebastian & Nina ( the half breed, going as British bull-dogs, AKA Chucky and Chuckies bride ) they want nothing to do with me ! That will pass, I consol myself..... Especially when I am up for deep fried chicken and chips from the corner cafe'.

Another huge hurdle over come today was the fact that a permanent live in was changing over. I had basically told the agency that if they were prepared to employ her ( yes a her ) I would be greatful to have her. She arrived yesterday for some shadowing work, and full time as of today. She is young, compitent, knows her spinal stuff, has bowel management experience, and is lovely ! Her name is Valentineouis - with her approval, she is re-named Valentine ! Giggles every time I beckon. No Mona Lisa, rather portly, big in presence, and has a bit if a sence of humour ! She has never grilled chops before, which I find fascinating, but gives me another angle to gaining independence - Instruction ! I swear if she checks the backing potato's one more time, they will jump outa their tin foil back into the vegetable basket !,,, Food for thought.............. Less is more !!

With that my valued friends, family and tag on followers ( which are so important on this journey ), I need to get back to my Valentine and precious lamb chops !

Always sent with love, on-going health, and no criticism to anyone !

That phone will always be answered. Our time is irrelevant. His time needs to be respected !

Lova ya all.

G.