My first year anniversary

Today, one year ago, doctors gave me 72 hours to live ! - 72 hours on, and having mobilised my family to gather around the bed in anticipation of my demise ........... I kept on breathing !! Although I am still certain that I " died " during that initial 72 hour window period, here I am lying in an induced coma - very vague memories of familiar voices around me, and not quite grasping where ? when ? why ? .............. But loving the DRUGS being administered to hold me in a state of complete limbo !

Next thing I know, is possibly a reversal drug administered to bring me out of the induced coma ! SHIT !!! I have " made " it !! Again, vague recollection of familiar voices, vague recollection of nurses, doctors and nurse aides hovering around pulling and pushing pipes, tubes, and IV drugs, and then a doctors voice telling me that I had had a SCI - was paralysed from the head down - prognosis.....we just have to wait and see................ Then to be told by the consultant that a blood thining agent had been wrongly administered and that had caused the paralysis. Oh great !!!!

So here I lie ( a complete mop ), head movement only, trachea in place, and assistant breathing apparatus. Let me die, let me die, let me die......... Is all I can think ! Coupled with th NON-Reasurrance from the medical staff of any form of recovery !!! Nobody can explain the frustration of wanting your eye-brow scratched when you are unable to communicate !! Unless you have been in this position !

ONE year later..........I sit in my own apartment, yes, in a wheelchair ! , but with a functional right hand side, and working on the left hand side via intensive physio etc etc. Unbelievable carers and starting work next week. Life deals us various hurdles that need to be challenged !, Argued !, and either grasped and accepted or on the contrary left to allow all the negativity in , and not to be faced !

I chose to face my hurdle, and beat it head on .......... A choice often willing to revert to the first instance..... It is the easier of the two evils ! But NO, people, no hurdle is insurmountable ! No problem in life is too big to resolve - we have friends, acquaintances, social media etc etc to reach out to for help ! Trust me, it works !!

I have rehabilitated to half a mop ! I love the analogy of the mop - said and meant in jest as well as in reality. Half a body is better than no body ! Stop sweating the small stuff, and concentrate on all factors in your life that are positive - It works.

In closing, and after one year, I am thankful for the slow but persistent changes in my body, I am thankful for the partial re-functioning of my right hand side, I am thankful for the energy that I have for the , hopeful regaining of my left hand side of the body. No matter what beliefs you have, trust in your higher powers !

Always remember, one NEVER knows what lies around the corner !

Love yourself, love others - and tell them that. Repair damaged relations, look after yourself, and never forget that we all fall into the " Why not me ? " category.

As always, sent with love, and good onward energy ! Not at all meant as a lecture - move forward and the shadows will never overtake !

Love

G

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