Jeeves vs's jeeves's

It's a little like Downton Abbey around here at the mo ! Here I go, delusions of grandeur, but then again, I do have two people in my face 24/7. I know that C, who spent three weeks with me will vouch for me in saying that, I have two people contesting for my full attention day in and day out !

As irritating as it may be, my condition over-rides any delusions of my situation being any other way, and I have to accept that. To re-cap, for those that have just started following my blog, I have two live in carers - alternating on a weekly basis, plus a double up on a daily basis, for 12 hours per day to help the live in's. A care package seldom given, and one I am eternally greatful for !!!!

BUT, there is a hierarchy within the carer circle that until now I was totally un-aware of. Live-in's over rule double up's !!! Big time !!! It is a little like playing Bridge ! Singletons, doubles, Voids, Trumps or No Trumps - options ! Options !, options................

In hindsight, I made the biggest mistake by calling the wrong suit. My wrong suit to call was : " Friendly ", and it has only just manifested itself just prior to my favourite 24/7 change over. I, being myself have been treating all as equal beings, and this morning when the double up arrived and during the an regime I corrected the 24/7 on some small issue........ All hell broke loose !!! Not gonna bore you with the detail, suffice to say that just before handover my favourite 24/7 asked for a private meeting. I knew it was coming as he had had a long face since I had corrected him earlier in the day.

Again, will not bore you with the details, but he chewed my ear off about the above correction, and then pointed out something that C had picked up on, which I never agreed to, but here it came again - from the horses mouth ...... " We are not your friends " we are your carers ! Not to be made friends with, and our job is to serve you in making your life as easy as possible ! - that is what we are paid to do. Then an even bigger clanger...... He asks, do you pay your friends to be your friends ? My mouth drops, but all the pieces suddenly fall into place - these are not my friends, but extra appendages to make my life as normal as possible.

Point taken, no correcting Jeeves 1 in front of double ups, stop treating any of the as mates, and re-take control. Jeeves 1 and I agree that Jeeves 2 ( 24/7 ) needs to go. I need to create a schedule for the double ups to do during the day, and I am to treat all as staff, not colleagues, not mates and deffinitly not friends !!

On reflection, Jeeves 1 is so right. As much as we hate to admit it, or bury our heads in the sand, there will always be a class distinction, or a racial issue, or just a plain hierarchy that is not seen - I for one, did not see this as any kind of issue, but have now learned ! So as of tomorrow, my attitude HAS to change - if the double up is late, report it to the Care company etc etc etc.

With the handover today, I took control again, when asked by Jeeves 2, who was one and a half hours late, what was for diner ? I simply said, my obligation is not to feed you, but to use you to make my life easier....... His face dropped, and off he scurried to the local store to stock up on his own supplies.

It sounds really petty, I know, but in reality Jeeves 1 is so right !

Enough about this small Downton Abbey then ! Am still waiting for my Webber raincoat to arrive, but have braved the shitty London weather without it. Spent a few hours in the office today - STILL trying to Phathom out tha amazing voice recognition program ! Amazing as it is, Jo had to get the top of the range version, which just as you think you are getting the hange of it...... BOOM !!.. It sends a HUGH curved ball !!!! I will conquer it -  come hell or high water !!!! It is great to be going into the office - interacting with the ol' tribe, And of course I do get a little extra care ! Have to give Jo credit for his complete understanding as to weening my way back into the system, together with his understanding of doctors appointments, Physio's etc etc - but with all of this, I do try to get into the office by 10. Most of them oblivious to the fact that I am up by 5 in order to make this possible. Jo does, and says nothing. Good man !!!

Thursday, sees my return to Stanmore / Alcatraz, and a rather extensive re-evaluation of the re-building of my body. Somewhat apprehensive, all I can do is go with an open mind and pray that being on the outside has given forth to improvements with the growth of nerve endings ! This, together with signals from the brain enhancing any kind of improvement will be amazing ! As I keep reminding myself, this is a long process, and after one year..... Just to be given a little encouragement would be a blessing. We are only lent to this world, and any hurdles dealt to us need to be accepted, processed and dealt with accordingly ! HARD, but true ! So, guys spare a thought for me on Thursday, as I want outa this 4 x 4 !

In finishing off, and perhaps a tad selfish for not having mentioned this on the onset, please lift up a prayer for J Da Babe, who left this world last week. A non-judgemental, caring mother of a friend of mine. RIP J.

As always, sent with love and on-going good health !! Let's live life like there is no tomorrow, let's dance like everyone is watching, and let's tell the people that mean a lot to us ! Have NO regrets !

G.