Sometimes a kick up the ass is needed !!!

My mind set numb ! My body tired, my chair seating not right, my paperwork mounting....... Any excuse to find a reason to hibernate !!! Not on, not part of my plan !, not me ! But hey ....... It kinda grabs one without one knowing ! Any excuse to ' not shave ', ' not to worry about ' appearance ' coz you not meeting anyone on that day ! Not me, not on, not to fall into the everyday demonic scenario of getting the morning regime over and done with, to stare out of the window in the hopes of life coming to save you !!! It does not happen !, but it's Easy to believe ! My friend of many years, Jo, pays me a visit ! And with no holes barred gives me the lecture I soooooo need ! His encouragement together with stern realisation that can only be taken from a friend has worked ! This is bull-shit ! This is unacceptable, this is not the attitude I, or he remembers of the past ! What happened to Gavin in the past few weeks ??? The attitude, the zest !, the ' take no shit ' Gavin ?? The person who could sort anything out ? The Gavin with an attitude ' we have a problem .... How are we gonna sort it out ? '.......... Thank you Jo, not only for your valued friendship, but your absolute honesty in NOT allowing me to slide backwards !! It's over ! I move forwards again albeit in a chair for the moment ! So, the mound of paperwork is done n' dustered !, no excuses now, present Jeeves re-briefed into time saving efforts of morning regime ! Change overs to have the same ! Wake up time re-scheduled to 6:30 as before, and this 'attitude dude ' is back !! Three weeks since my last blog, which has seen me re-hospitalised with a so called lung infection - no coughing, no pain, just a little hard of breathing ! God knows, one sees all the politicians venting their fury about people taking up hospital beds, but try discharging yourself in order to free up a bed ! A fucking nightmare and an ordeal second to none ! I asked my doctor if any of the nursing staff of the ward had any experience of SCI patients - answer NO, I asked for a transfer to the Neuro ward - no beds available, I asked for a SCI mattress given my condition ! - Why was I different was the reply !!! Pressure sores are an issue for me - blank stare ! Then I asked the good doctor if anyone on the ward was compitent with my autonomic dystroflexia - which could happen at anytime....... Blank ! St ThomasHospital, if you insist on admitting patients, please read their case notes....apparently all on line and easily accessible !! The good doctor was more interested in pontificating with his English grammar to his student than looking into the patients needs ! To this day, I don't believe he even knew I was a tetraplegic patient with special requirements, let alone a carrier of MRSA, a virus that the hospitals are so anal about!!! Yet I was put into a ward with what I believe were patients susceptible to the virus - together with flem coughing, sneezing and hissing patients ! More bugs inside than out ! I DEMANDED my discharge, having laid in the same position for over 12 hours with not one nurse appealing to any one need of my condition - they in their defence knew nothing about it ! I was finally discharged at 1:30 am, with home care assistance and better care from my live in carers ! One wonders why the NHS employs these doctors from other parts of the world who clearly battle with stringing an English sentence together !! Ok, so I'm over that now, finished with all the anti-biotics etc etc and back on the streets terrorising all the people again ! I have a skiing trip booked and a sky-diving appointment booked ..... Will tell you all about it in my next blog.... Sent with love and ongoing good health wishes !!! G. Xxxx