Blog not complete yet ! But just keeping you in the loop !!!

So........ My bird watching days are OVER !! P & P finally gave in to the wid element and abandoned nest !! Forget the niceties of wild life in London. If you want it, go to the zoo..... I'm done with it ! Apologies for the half completed layout of my blog, but having spent many hours into the early hours of the morning, I am slowly getting it right - still not mastered the " paragraph ", " dimension " things along with being able to import pics etc etc etc..... I will get there ! It's been a rather interesting past two weeks of yet again stroking ego's, interviewing prospective replacement carers and dealing with the bullshit that these people seem to aspire to. I managed to replace the one live in that I was not happy with - after an hours consultation as to my gripes about him, he suggested that I had no empathy towards him, and that I did not understand the responsibility the carer had ! And when I explained to him that his role was to ensure that my life was run for me by the carers, ie pills, positioning, pressure relief, excersises etc, he said that I was too much work !! PLEASE ! If I could earn their money and sleep for 16 hours a day, I would be very greatful......... So, out the door he went and our new link is a Portugese guy, very polite, seems to know his stuff, and seems to get on with the team ! HELL NO !!! Just as I think all is dandy, Princess Eugene starts moping around with one syllabil answers ! His lip dragging along like a stretched pork sausage on its way to the synagogue !! I give up ! I ask him what's wrong and get a simple " nothing " in response. His shift ended today and he left without saying goodbye !!! So, I am going to throw caution to the wind, take one heck of a chance, and have contacted my HEalth care manager and do it myself ! Risky, but my gut says Do It. I don't think most people can understand just how invasive it is to have two people, basically hovering around to do the most menial thing such as write a telephone number down ! It's exhausting and frustrating ! But enough bitching now...... I have to look at it as " fortunate ". The 12 volt battery arrives........ Yeeeehhhhiiiiiii, you are probably gonna see me being chased around the streets of London by the coppa's !. We charge it up, speaker discretely placed under my seat, pointing forward and off Rameez and I set to terrorise any padestrean on their phone, texting or looking at maps. Gotta give my Meezie credit here, he is open to breaking the rules, game for pushing the buzzer so some clump of tourist " shit their cakes " as he puts it ! I am liberated, far far to eager to instruct a " push now " command, and he is equally as keen to do it without command !!! On route to Kingston, at Waterloo station, we are trying to find a staff member to release a ramp so I can get onto the train. Not a sole in sight and 3 minutes to departure ! No problem ! Meezie announces on the hailer " ASSiSTANCE NEEDED ! nOW ""...... Within seconds staff come running ! Then the slow boat to China tourists get a " buzz " honk to seperate them - we sail through !! We go to B & Q on Sunday and create havoc by beeping, and buzzing our way through ! They even opened a reserved till for us - sure that they just wanted us out. Funny thing is, they cannot see anything and all look a little confused as to where the noise is coming from !!! Love it, love it, love it, but somehow I think it might get us into a little trouble !! It was this time last year that I was due to be released by Alcatraz. The powers that be extended my stay by another 3 months. So, in essence I have been on the outside going int my 10th month. It has been a long hard battle to maintain a positive attitude and continue with the maintenance program for my recovery. The consultant is happy with my progress, but in all honesty, living with this condition requires constant reminding that the excersises, standing, muscle toning, EFS etc etc is really starting to get to me !! The improvements are remarkable, albeit slow, but steady ! To those followers that I have been in touch with, KEEP going !! The mind can get us through ! Especially to you Chris, who stood for the first time in years ! Well done, and keep it up ! Don't faulted, and DONT give in to the easy route !!! As always, be well and thankful to life's lot - Everything is for a reason. Love ya all. G