Ok, ok , ok......... My bubble slightly shattered, but, hell, I think I can cope. A follower of mine messages me to say..." Well Gavin, your Facebook profile pic shows you as a very abled bodied person, so I don't get your blogging " .......... My first response to come to mind was, stolen from Kathrine Tate's comical DVD's............" How veeeeerrrrrrryyyyyy dare you ", but I don't think he would get it !!!.
Yes... My profile pic was taken on a holiday in Hong Kong, at the top of the peak, and yes, I was standing. Apologies to all and sundry for not having updated my pic...... But, in going forward with my present condition, I think that that pic, encourages me with my quest to regain full function of this rather stubborn bod ! To avoid any confusion, I have made a mental note to change that pic, as the determination from within far out weighs any logistics in the mind to use that pic as a frame of reference !!! Had never really thought about it, but maybe there is a point in his observation - will post a pic of the cripple me in the hopes that this follower can conceptualise the extremities of this injury ! If not, will block him permanently from the site - Like I want to be in this situation !!!!
Today started off as a rather gloomy, normal, London autumn day - grey sky's, rain and just a touch of wind. After an amazing Physio session yesterday, and having accomplished shelving space in the store cupboards, I tasked myself with the organisation of drawers, pantry cupboard and hall cupboard, with the intention of minimising the time taken each morning to ready myself for the day.
Current Jeeves has a long face, as I have told him that the normal 2,5 hours needs to be reduced to 1 hour - not possible he says. WELL, I say it has to happen otherwise we need to re-assess your caring abilities - further long face. I instruct to take everything out of the chest of drawers, together with any supplies from the hall cupboard. Over loading of all sorts - made up of 1 drawer now for a streamline morning regime ! Jeeves 2 ( double up ) fully understands where I am coming from ! I feel better !!
Jeeves 2 ( 24/7 ) arrives for change over on Monday morning ! So let's see what his response is gonna be ? I assume not pleased as I am now taking complete control of my care - Something closer to regaining more independence. From constant reminders that we are running out of various supplies, to an overload of supplies randomly showed into drawers never to be seen again !
So, we are all set for a new morning regime - will keep you posted !
The unfortunate thing about ( SCI ) , spinal cord injury, is that you are never assured of the following day's outcome. Maybe hectic spasms, unpredictable bowels, just feeling shitty, there is no reason or explanation but, you just have to get on with it and deal with whatever faces you ! I am sure that the wine aids in the discomfort which follows the following day !!!!! But, there is precious little to give up now to warrant any kind of more pleasurable following day !!
So, as I slowly sip my Pinot Gricio, watching the herbs grow on the small balcony, I can only but say that life is good for the moment. Live in the moment, embrace what we have, and always remember, if you can see the shadows behind you, you are not moving forward !
Love Ya
G.
So happy that the old (not in years babe) Gavin is still with us!! What would we do without your sense of humor and your love of life? Great that you are taking control and aiming at independence (as much as your situation will allow). Loving the updates and the reminders that we should all be grateful for what we have. lotsa luv Kath xxx
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